Some things you will never forget. Like you're first crush or you're first bike or the first time you ever discovered you had a vagina. And that rubbing it made it feel good.
Nothing wrong with that. I think everyone should masturbate. It's natural and healthy. I remember I was young when i first discovered it. I was about 8 or 9. And it never occurred to me that I had a vagina and that it was a girl thing. I remember just wanting to know why it was there and what the purpose of it was. And then one night when my parents where asleep I watched this movie that had a sex scene and I saw that the guy was going down on the girl. And she liked it too! I was shocked. Scared and more than anything intrigued. I thought to myself..I want someone to do that to me.
I was not ashamed at the time nor am I now. I was a growing girl who wanted to desperately feel that connection, I wanted to be in tune with my sexuality and my vagina. The first time I touched myself I felt awkward and like a total freak. I never orgasmed at the time, because I always stopped myself after a minute.
I started having orgasms at the age of 11. There was this one song, I don't know what it was , but to me it was just sexy. And I use to listening to it on my tape player aka WALKMAN. And I would get off to it. I mean full on shaking orgasm. You guys know what I'm talking about! And I liked it, but felt dirty at first after. And I know now it was because no one ever told me it was okay to feel horny and turned on. I only heard of boys doing things but not girls. It just did not exist.
But I was never the same after that first shaking orgasm. I was delighted that I could feel that way. And the funny part is that even years after, my best orgasms came from self loving. I guess you know yourself so well.
