Undying lust

I fucken love this one. I've never been so vulnerable in my life, until I wrote this one.


My love is free
But you never promised to love me
Why can't I see the hate you breed?
Ok.ok I'l go away.....
But you know you'll be asking for more
My taste , your lips , my touch , your kiss
Can you ever forget it?
Late nights you think alone
The truth comes out
You want , I please
But pleasure isn't so much free
Remember you promised to never love me?
Then I see the selfishness you breed
But your lips , my taste , your touch , my kiss
Can I ever forget?
I wait alone , wait for your call
One more time won't kill anyone
Your guilt , my taste , your hands , my face
Can we ever forget?
So much for free love
My love ain't free
Your taste isn't the same
One more kiss , one more touch
So much for our
Undying Lust

Stay away from the acid

The dripping , the dripping
Your head is spinning , it's spinning
Where did she go? Up to heaven or down below?
Your heart is racing , mind contemplating
You need to find her heart beat........
FASTER , FASTER , you run
Stop the yelling it;'s not helping
Somebody please ..... no one is there
You're stuck in this maze
Find your way to her grave
Acid , Acid , Acid
You should stay away from the
ACID
You're crying , the crying
The tears of your best friend Dying
And there's nothing you can possibly do........
Acid , Acid ,
Stay away from the Acid

(Don't know why I wrote this or what I might have been on, but I like it)

UNLIVED

As far as where I stand with abortion, I am all for women having their choice, with their body. But for me, I could never, unless I was raped or something horrible along those lines. I don't know, I didn't know I could forsee the future. This ones for you J.


I never expected this
I always feared it
Against my morals
Against my god
I kill the unlived
Because they say I am too young
Instead of carrying you around
I'll bury you down
And cry in my closet
Because I know that I've lost it
And as you go , my innocences
Go with you
Because I killed the unlived
I killed a big part of me

My friend.

I wrote this about a friend back in 2005.


I wont go back. Back to the way I was when suicide was my every thought. When I hated to live and hated the thought of living on until it all ate me up. I tried so many times to end it but something held me back. So many days were consumed with ways to get out. Contemplating so much, crying until my eyes turned blood shot red. I refuse to go back in to that empty place. Where suicide was my only fate. Where the only choices were a shot to the head , a slice to the wrist , a noose for my neck , and the dreaded kiss of death. So I made the thoughts drown away with the happiness of others. I tried so hard to ignore the pain and make all my anger go away. I threw it all up and rid my heart of suicidal thoughts I sucked all the posionoius tar from my already dead veins . I threw away the pills and razors that once relived the pain. I cried the last of deadly tears and walked away from the last of my pains. Now im better living life a day at a time because I refuse to go back to that day to that time. When my only friend was suicide.