So, I am assuming a well needed update is due. Haven't posted in quite a while,
because things have gone in a way different direction since I last blogged.
Lots and lots of things have changed.I'm trying to figure out which way to list
them. Ah holy cow! Who Care!
Here it goes...
I no longer reside in Beautiful Monrovia, California. I am in Lodi (Sacramento).
I left home to find my way and start off poor and work my way up. Because to
me that is the only way to do so. I need to struggle in order to get my shit
together. I need to build character and live my life my way. I can't stay home, in
Monrovia, and live my life there. Because it won't be my own, it will belong to my
family, my extended family,who can do nothing but not mind their own business.
I can't be fully free there, so I left.
And glad I am!
For it took courage to tell my own mother that I'm not coming home and that I
need to do this. I needto live my life as I please. Because God knows if I don't,
nothing will become of me.
I need the confidence in myself, I need to relay on myself and be fully responsible
for myself. I just can't go on longer living at home. Because I love it so dearly
and feel the best when I am there. Secure. But that security might never let me
leave and I don't want that.
I can't be what is expected of me, the worse. Not that I am doing this to prove
anything to anyone. but myself.
I need I need I need. To Live the way I Please.
In other news, I so dearly and passionately love the book Little Women. I've read
it many times but it never gets old for me and I adore the movie as well, the 1994
version. I realized Jo and Beth's relationship remind me of my sister and mine.
Her being quiet Beth and I , wild Jo. Great book and movie!
Also, today I went with Stephen and his sister to the Welfare office, while we
waited I was bored and trying desperately to entertain myself. Bex (Stephen's sister)
was on her Iphone playing with Apps and she warned to not look up bedtime
stories on there because you get ones for adults and not little kids. I laughed
and then decided I wanted to write a soft-core porn short story. So I took the
vanilla envelope I had filled with paper work and started to write this story. And
it was really good! Stephen enjoyed it and I thought hmm, maybe I could
do this for a living? A side job? How great that would be. I have millions of soft
porn stories in my head, waiting to "come" out.
So there, I shall do so.
Wish me luck.
Your Odd Friend,
Yvodka.
