When I was in high school, I was involved in a organization called Encompass. http://www.encompass.org/ (you can actually see me on the main page, I'm the bleach blond wearing a Misfits shirt) They had a program called Bridge, that involved teenagers talking about social issues , while working together to create a community tile mosaic piece. That program changed my life, it made me change my whole perspective and it also made me finally realized I was a feminist. One activity we did was separate into gender groups and do the "Inside/Outside Box" activity. Inside the box represented what society as a whole thought a female should be, the outside what we shouldn't. I remember I had so much to say, I also remember I got teary eyed when i said it. I was that moved. I never was the same since. I will also mention, the guys Inside/Outside poster was just as interesting.

Shout out to the folks at Encompass!

I guess feminist aren't suppose to have families

Lately I've been getting reminded why I distant myself from certain people.

Apparently the views I hold have labeled me as a man hating non-child bearing women. Which I obviously am not. I was recently informed that "since I have these "feminist" views, why do I have a husband and child. Which makes me a poser." Their exact wording. First off, why aren't all women calling themselves feminist? Feminist is such a taboo today. I know quite a few feminist who aren't lesbians, have hairy armpits and hate men. I feel that being a women who values herself and knows her self worth is a feminist. I wish all females would see that and just admit that "Hey I don't like being called a slut because I enjoy sex,. I demand equal pay. I hate double standards. " I could go on. But won't.

So this person , who is also female. insisted that I was this huge poser, because I got married and had a baby, WELL ACTUALLY, had a baby THEN got married. I was not aware that in the Feminist Rule book, it was stated a feminist can't bear children or find love.( I think it's VERY POSSIBLE to find someone that respects what you believe, treats you the way you deserve and have a loving equal relationship with them.)

The truth is some women want to have kids and others don't. GASP. Yes there are women out there that don't want kids, god forbid that!

Why is it anyone's business anyways? If someone wants to have a kid cool, if not cool.

Did I plan to have a kid? Honestly not really, it happened luckily with someone who I absolutely love and adore. I did what I thought I should and I love my son to death. He's my world.
My views on women's rights, on being a women is simple. I believe in equality for women, respect and having choices. I don't need anyone to decide for me what I need.

And I certainly do not need someone questioning my beliefs and saying I am a "poser". I know what I know.

I do know that I totally just rambled on and I feel I make no sense. It's been a long day and it's getting late.

Dylan's fast asleep, and my SIMS need to be taken care off.

Night/

I get married on a Tuesday!

I've been getting a lot of shit about our sudden wedding. Especially since we decided to go the Vegas route. But I love it! It sounds so fun. I just hate that they feel like I owe them something, like I need to make it so they can make it. But I have to admit I did this last minute thing because I honestly did not want this big wedding that we were planning. I didn't want a hall or a church or catering or 200 people I don't even care for watching me get married. I love this plan of getting away and getting married in this cute chapel (its so pretty )in front of my parents, my siblings, and a few of my close friends. One who I recently reconnected with, who we had a fall out in high school. It's intimate, sweet and short. And then we all get to celebrate together and party in Vegas. Stephen loves the idea too. I just wish everyone would understand, it's not my style, not my personality to have this big wedding. If they don't understand it fine, but at least respect it and not talk down to me or make me feel bad about our decision.

Old Friend

This year has started off to be interesting. I got home today and checked my face book. I saw a message from my old best friend in high school. I mean she was like a sister to me and I was very cruel in that high school way to her. Which I am quite ashamed of. She messaged me saying how it's a new year and we are different people from back then and if I wanted to meet up for coffee. Of course I said yes.I'm interested to see who she is now and how she exacts to the person I am now. I expect it to be awkward since I haven't seen her in about four years. I just hope a new friendship blossoms with this meeting...

We shall see.

My First Real Piece

I had done so many before I never finished because I thought they weren't good enough , weren't "Artistic" . But then a couple of days ago I thought, well don't we all have our own views what art is? So I went to get some paint supplies and this is what I got.





I actually like it, the whole time I painted this (which was on New Years Eve, while a party with all my family was going on in the house, as I locked myself up being anti social) I was thinking of my relationship with my Dylan. I saw it as a mother protecting her baby, her little soul that is very much apart of her...

Hmm..Yeah.

Vlog and Job

So I decided I might be starting a vblog on youtube pretty soon, so I'll post them on here as well.

Also I am starting my job search, I think Dylan is old enough now (even though he is starting to have stranger anxiety) but I've been told it's normal now at this age. I really need help out financially.

I am tired...

Girly Vagina

I was having a conversation with my cousin about having kids. I mentioned that I would have love to have a little girl in the future if it was in the cards. She went on to say that if I had a girl she wouldn't be a "girly girl". What is that all about? What makes someone a girly girl? Does she have a super vagina? Seriously, please tell me. Apparently if I had a girl she would be a tomboy like me. Um...I was not aware I was a tom boy. Another question, what is a tom boy? I looked it up.

Tom Boy : is a girl who exhibits some characteristics and or behavior considered typical of the gender role of a boy,[1] including the wearing of typically masculine-oriented types of clothes and engaging in games and activities that are often physical in nature, and which are considered in many cultures to be the domain of boys.

Also tom boys are girls who demonstrate a stronger interest in science and technology.

Doesn't really sound like me, not that any of those things are wrong, I know plenty of girls into science, technology, sports, etc.

I don't understand why I am being called a tom boy? Is it because I refuse to wear make up (I just don't like it on my face) or high heels (I am clumsy in those things!)I wear dresses, only dresses, I feel so comfortable in them. I hate pants, I feel uncomfortable in them. I am such a purse person. And did I not mention, I gave BIRTH (technically a C section, but a human being came out of me!). Isn't that the most feminine thing a woman can do??

And who is to say my future daughter (maybe) will be a "tom boy". Who the hell knows what kind of person she would be.

I think what I am really trying to say is...A VAGINA IS A VAGINA. There isn't such a thing called a girly vagina. And if there is, I want to see.